Keep focused on your chanting of japa. No one can hope to ever think clearly about anything spiritual, or become Krishna conscious without chanting at least 16 quality rounds of japa every day. I'm sorry if that disagrees with what you believe or hear, but that is my own practical experience (from a lifetime) and also the instruction of Srila Prabhupada.
It's very easy to think that we are Krishna conscious and viewing things in spiritual ways without this, but in reality, we are not. This is our link to Srila Prabhupada, and it's also our direct association and purification from Krishna. Without that, we can read and study and think all kinds of things, but spiritual vision is a gift that comes directly from Krishna. Krishna gives us this gift when we follow the instructions of our guru, and associate directly with Krishna's holy name in the form of chanting. That is the prescription for this age. Don't allow anything or anyone, including your own mind, to cheat you out of this.
It is in fact the most beautiful, wonderful, astounding, amazing way to live even this life, what to speak of prepare you for the time of death or any future births you will take.
Please make it your life. Ultimately, no matter what I write or say, that is the only real thing there is of value, Krishna's holy name, and association with Him in the form of sound vibration. Take shelter there, place all your trust there. You will find a thousand ways to be mislead. Krishna's holy name, and following the instructions of Srila Prabhupada will never mislead you.
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(this photo of Srila Prabhupada was taken at the Detroit temple, 1975. I am there, in the red sari in the back on the right side of the photo, following Srila Prabhupada. I pray that I always will follow Srila Prabhupada, eternally.)
